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Remembering God’s Goodness in my Youth

It’s odd really… Taking in my current surroundings and thinking about all the change that has happened in my life in just the past 5 years.

April 13, 2011…. I was probably up late doing homework, writing an essay, or even studying for upcoming exams. I probably just got home from some Student Council related event, whether it be a High School game or mandatory event my Leadership class was putting on. I remember being beyond stressed on a daily basis – maintaining a high GPA while trying to actually enjoy all the clubs that I enrolled myself into was alot more complicated than I was initially led to believe. On top of that, I was trying to juggle relationships with long-time friends and my first real boyfriend (by real, I mean the first guy I ever went on a real date with + more dates to follow).

On another note, The Cox Home was a full house.

All 5 brothers at home, 3 girls, 4 dogs, and a rabbit. Family drama ensued daily… The fridge and pantry were ransacked on grocery days. Someone was always “borrowing” something of someone else’s. In the meantime, my parents were surviving the nightmare of grade school, jr high, high school and college aged kids ALL living together.

Despite the horrific descriptions I may have just given…I truly miss it. I miss my brothers picking on me. I miss my little sisters being the 2 smartest little minions, always getting my brothers in trouble and making the most hilarious photobooth videos on the family desktop in the kitchen. I miss defending my family when I overheard gossip at school. I miss fighting over poptarts on Sunday mornings and playing kickball in the culdesac on Sunday evenings. I miss watching each one of my siblings personalities and talents evolve. I miss hearing a sibling share their testimony of believing in Jesus and celebrating with the family. I miss going to sporting events and meeting a million girlfriends until the right ones came along. I miss my brothers asking me to help them with their homework in return for their music playlists. I miss the days of excitement in the home over new technology news or when my parents surprised us with vacations that we all begged to bring our friends on even though we knew that we make the best memories together on our own. I miss someone always being in the dog house. I miss eavesdropping. I miss the “Come to Jesus” meetings where my parents would clarify their expectations and top it off with some wisdom from scripture. I miss our wild imagination as kids to turn our backyard into anything we dreamed up. I miss backyard parties and never missing a birthday. I miss lining up on the stairs on Christmas morning and hitting the repetitive wardrobe crisis on holidays…. I cherish all these moments.

God has been so good. Some would say “I’d do it all over again” , but I’m honestly more exhausted and emotional just thinking about it. Growing up in my family these past 21 years has been the most intense ride of highs and lows. The deadly waves, the tough blows, the hard trials and impossible obstacles that we’ve been through together has strengthened our bond more than the good days.

…aaaannnd now I’m in tears(que to close this soon and sleep)…

It would take a book for me to describe the storms and silver linings of all that’s happened in the past 5-21 years. It’s just amazing to me every time it sinks in that we’re all grown up now…all 5 boys are out of the house. 4 married. Now it’s just the girls that are left. I’m cherishing every last day with them.

I am so blessed by my family. We have an unusually strong bond that I credit fully to Jesus Christ.


My deep 2am thoughts on Wednesday, April 13, 2016.



“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” 1 Corinthians 13:7

“Bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.” Colossians 3:13

“My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments, for length of days and years of life and peace they will add to you. Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good success in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:1-6

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28


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